Indecisiveness

Straightened?
Braid-Out?
Twist-Out?
Wash-N-Go?

Ugghhh!!! I can never decide what to do with my hair. It is especially hard since this is my first winter primarily sticking to natural styles. But every once in a while I get the itch.

The itch to take out the ceramic chi knock-off (gvc - sally's brand) bumpers and get the flowy, just stepped out of a pantene pro-v commercial look.

I straightened my hair for the first time in 6 months in September. Lasted for four days. I got bored. I missed my big, bouncy hair. Sometimes I feel like my Braid-Outs and Twist-Outs define me more than my straight hair. *Que: India Arie's - "I am Not My Hair".* I know, I KNOW, hair should not define someone. But my natural-ness is a part of who I am. I feel like a part of my personality is stripped away from me when I wear my hair straight.

It sounds insane. But where I live, that's the thing. Long, straight, silky hair. And if you don't have it, the local Beauty Supply Store on the corner has it, 18" and beyond. I don't think I've ever looked at someone with straight hair and said: woooow, I love her hair. It's hard to when everyone else has it. Reminds me of that game "The Lemmings". All of the characters dressed the same, walked the same, and completely lacked individuality.

But now I'm back to missing my straight hair. Hmmm...

Here I go again with a 4-day hair style, just to satisfy the urge. Until I get bored again.

Then again, that's the thrill of being a natural. Being able to switch up hair styles like a chameleon. So I might look a little Lemmingish for a couple of days, but I'll be back to finding my individuality in no time.